I was having trouble sleeping tonight. So I decided to take a glance at some of my writings (poems, but that sounds lame so I say writings.) I love to write. It is how I can express myself. I cannot draw or do anything visually striking, I have no musical talent, but I can write. It is my freedom. I have been writing for as long as I can remember. I have hundreds of writings and a few stories (that are all unfinished). Unfortunately last spring my computer was stolen and with it my 23 page word document of all my writings since 2007. It was a double column document and had well over a hundred writings. I felt as tho someone tore my heart out and squashed it. My computer, well that can be replaced but not those writings.
Anywho, tonight I was going back and reading the ones I have written since that disaster. And I found that they are powerful. I was surprised that I wrote some of them. I did not think I was capable of writing something like those. Of course, this is me talking about my writings. And I show them to very few people, its personal to me and that way I think they are sweet and there is no one to rip them apart. But writing is my freedom, my art, and my sanity.
I used to often be angry that I seemed to have to artistic ability. I aways told myself that the girls want a guy who can play the guitar not write poems. But art is a self expression of who we is be, so be yourself and embrace the gifts the good lord has blessed you with. And embrace that FREEDOM!
Opher
Sometimes I feel the same way. I pretty much only write when I'm journaling, but the other day I was reading through some old ones and had to step back and say "Was that really me who wrote that!?" Anyway, I like that you are embracing your artsy side. It is very freeing, but probably also much more difficult for guys to do that. Just think of J.D.!
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