I wanted to share some stuff that has been going on in my life since I last posted in January. This could go either way. The selfish part of me wants to complain about somethings, but in my heart, I just want to shout praise to the Lord for what he as been doing.
Firstly, about a month ago I was placed to lead Young Life at Bowsher High School. I had not led for about a year or so and was deep in prayer about doing so again. Thankfully, the Lord put that on the heart of my area director as well. And it has been incredible to get going again. Just being a club and getting to meet high school kids has been incredible. I have met some great guys, and I hope to gain solid friendships with them and act as a light of the Lord as he works in their lives. Getting to help high schoolers experience the Love of Christ is honestly the best thing I could imagine ever doing.
Secondly, I will be going to Bogota, Columbia this summer for a week. Once there, I will be helping Young Life to run a summer camp for Colombian teens. I am very anxious about this, but trust in the Lordś calling on my heart. I am in the process of fund raising, which I am not very keen on doing. But the Lord is showing me so much and teaching me show much through this process. And I really cannot wait until July 1st to arrive so I can go on this expedition!
Those are two great things going on in my life. And I am so thankful for what the Lord is doing. But He has also been teaching me that even through disappointment, He is there. That even when what I want does not work, He is there and He is working. This weekend, I took a big risk and it did not work out. Or at least that was my attitude at first. But throughout the past two days, with lots of prayer, I have realized that it did work out. What I wanted did not happen, but I fully believe the Lord wanted me to take that risk. He is teaching me through this disappointment. He is showing me that what I want may not be best for me. That he has something so much better. And that is hard to believe at times but it is truth.
So to put it simply, it is okay for me to feel disappointment and some hurt, but it is very important for me to trust in the Lord. I was mad at him, I yelled at him, I cussed him out, I felt that he betrayed me. But he did not. And the next time I have to take a similar risk, I feel that I will be more ready. And He is going to deliver me something even better! I trust in that, because His plans for me are good.
Friends, in times of disappointment and hurt, look to the Lord. Find Him, and stick to him. And remember that what we want may not be what we need. The Lord will provide for our needs.
